janji

كُلُّ نَفْسٍ ذَائِقَةُ الْمَوْتِ. 

“Tiap-tiap yg mempunyai jiwa akan merasakan kematian.”

 surah al-A'raaf ayat 34.

Al-fatihah buat arwah Iris Amni binti Firhat Yasir

I may not know you well, but I will always remember you as a smart young girl. rest in peace little one. May Allah grant you paradise.  

Insha-Allah

iris

Assalamualaikum.

What would you feel if your love ones is laying down in the hospital bed fighting her life to survive. And there is nothing you could do to help her ease the pain. When you can only pray for the best.

one of my officemate's daughter is in the ICU right now. She is one of the brightest girl I have ever met. she talks a lot. she tells stories. She is a very outspoken little girl. and she is a cutie pie.


A friend said to me "sedihnya. rasa mcm anak sendiri yang sakit" Well, I don't have a daughter but I feel the pain too. Its not easy seeing someone you love to be sick. not.easy.


Kakak doakan Iris cepat sembuh. Doktor bukan Tuhan. Iris kuatkan semangat.

Whoever come across this entry. Please pray for Iris Amni. please.

Do you?

Assalamualaikum.


Do you know that feeling when you are upset and you want to write it down but you don't want anyone to know but you need to let it out and you just don't have any idea what you should do about it. Do you?




Well. I do.

you see

Assalamualaikum

Often I felt that I am a victim of everybody's cruelty. Often I've been let down alone to face my pain. Often I felt that I don't really have anyone to help me when I am going through hard times. Often, we as human feels that way.

but little that I knew, I had let someone down too
little that I understand, that I have somehow causing pain to another human being too
little that I am aware of, I have pushed away people when they're going through hard times.
little that us human, knows that we have hurt others too.

so you see, its a cycle.

Its Life.

throwback 3 #kasut

Assalamualaikum,

right now I am sitting in front of the TV and watching one drama entitled 'Kasut'


Story is about two children (a girl and a boy) who lived with their grandmother and they are very very poor. the kakak wanted new shoes for school. so she saved up every pennies to buy them. tapi tahujelah drama Melayu kan. mana sah kalau tak ada orang jahat. so many things came up she even fell into the river and lost all her money.  sounds so stupid but yeah so many tears in this movie it is so sickening.gahhhhhhhhhh

But I know how she felt. I've been in her shoes. come to think about it. I think I am so stupidly selfish. oh okay. tiba-tiba rasa tak boleh nak sambung sebab sesak nafas memikirkan diri ini yang tak berhenti menyusahkan. not so much for a throwback right? I don't care. bye!

#throwback 2- betul ke kebetulan?

I have been friend with cikkay (bukan nama sebenar) since our diploma times. one thing that I really like about us is we don't mind wearing the same piece of cloth or specs or bags or whatever it is. I don't mind. really.

and most of the times, people thought we have somehow promised to wear the same baju kurung/ colour to classes when we don't. banyak kali jugak lah kan TERpakai baju sama warna/baju yang memang beli sama-sama sampai orang kata

"eh, samalah baju aina dengan cikkay. janji ehhh"

when what actually happen was

*me gets down to her room and found her wearing the same colour as I do*

"woi apehall engkoo pakai warna ni apahallll"

"woi tiruu-tiruuuu"

"ihiks, samelah baju itew"

"waaaaaaaaaa, magicnyaaa pakai baju sama-samaa" *kelip2 mata*

"sehati dan seeejiwaaaaa" *nyanyi*

"engko sibuk kan, aku pakai baju ni engko pakai yang ni!"

(the reaction differs according to our moods at that particular time)

 lepastu gelak sama-sama/ insult satu sama lain sampai letih. leulz

I guess we have some sort of telepathy connection or something.

 

 O Allah,

let us be friends.forever. Amin

p/s: 

I know that sometimes I just forget how fortunate I am to be blessed by family and friends that stay. I know that I seldom tells them how important they are in my life. You see, I don't have many friends. It is still countable. so yeah beautiful people. thank you so much for sparing some space for me inside your life. yours truly, me. 

#throwback 1- babysisters

Assalamualaikum.

jangan cerita banyak bosan sangat jadi mari buat 1st punya throwback. For those who maybe first time encounters this blog, well hello, I am Aina and I am the second awesome child in the family. and I have two younger sisters age 17 and 18.

The age gap between me and those two brats is kinda far. 6 years with alang and 7 with Ya, so basically we are not on the same boat. diorang tecik lagi kakak dah nak period dah masa tu. tapi kan, tapi kan, sebab diorang lah kakak jadi kurang matang . serius. ada tak korang umur 14 main masak-masak lagi? ada? ada? nayyy I dont believe you, that age selalunya semua dah sibuk bercinta. but not for me. I am still a kid.

Being an older sister, my mom always buat kerahan tenaga enko-pegi-tengok-adik-main-main-kalau-tak-jangan-keluar. K. so very not fair but I am so glad I did watch them growing up. kalau tidak entah bangsa mana diorang ikut eja "kamooo, buad, penad, saiaaa" omg I cannot live with that.

And because I am with them most of the time, I got to be the superhero they need. I've tell you guys in my earlier post that when I was young, my family had some hard time with money. and ya, but here's a story anyway. (nama lagi throwback kan?)

there was this one time, (hari raya) well, you guys know how kids love 'bunga api' and so does both of my sisters. during that time, my dad could not even afford to buy us food and its obvious that we don't have money to spend to buy bunga api. I was watching over my sisters one night in our hometown. the Eid eve, and all of our little cousins are occupied with tons of bunga api. seeing my sisters have none, they dengan muka memang tak ikhlas weh aku kalau ingat-ingat benda ni berapii jeee they gave them some (maybe two or three only) and because they dont have much, both of my little girls hesitate each time they wanted to play theirs. sebab kalau habis nanti tengok je orang main.I was so helpless. I felt like crying. poor my baby.

the next year, I secretly keep some money whenever I got duit belanja for school (kadang-kadang takda duit, so tak ada duit belanja). and night before we are going back to the hometown. I bought a box of bunga api. for my babies.

 that night, I was smiling proudly as they ran around our grandma's house, playing cheerfully with their own bunga-api. that was the night I tell myself, I would do anything for my sisters.

and now, both of them are old enough to be my friends. one is studying in Matriculation college in Pahang. the other one is going to sit for SPM this year. bless them ya Rabb. bless them forever.

 

 forever my babies :)