Its been a while since I write something here. I just heard the sound of thunder outside my house and it makes me feel calm. anyhow, last Saturday, my sister and I accompany Babah to his workplace and on our way home we went to the Pasar Malam because Babah wanted to find something to munch. and I saw people selling tudung, clothes, shoes and stuff. which took me back to the time when I was a little kid. Suddenly I felt choked. I was holding back tears.
"Bah, ingat tak masa dulu bah? beli baju 10 ringgit dekat pasar malam. sebab takda duit?"
I can feel the warm tears in my eyes as babah nodded and just smile. Yes, we had a difficult time before. I still remember wearing other people's clothes for Hari raya because babah couldn't afford to buy us. and I remembered eating 'nasi goreng' for the whole month, because we dont have any money.I remembered working when I was in form 4, to pay the SPM fees. and I remembered seeing my dad holding back tears when I gave him some of my salary. I am not whining. I am grateful.
I am grateful that we've been through bad times together, I am grateful that being in such situation makes me more human. I know how those unfortunate people feels. as I have felt the same thing before. I am grateful that ALLAH swt have shower us with a lot of good fortune. I am really thankful to have this life. I really do.
May Allah swt bless us all during Ramadhan, and throughout the year, with His forgiveness, mercy, and brings us all closer to Him and to each other. Insha-Allah
salam Ramadhan Al-Kareem