15th Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum.

Its been a while since I write something here. I just heard the sound of thunder outside my house and it makes me feel calm. anyhow, last Saturday, my sister and I accompany Babah to his workplace and on our way home we went to the Pasar Malam because Babah wanted to find something to munch. and I saw people selling tudung, clothes, shoes and stuff. which took me back to the time when I was a little kid. Suddenly I felt choked. I was holding back tears.

"Bah, ingat tak masa dulu bah? beli baju 10 ringgit dekat pasar malam. sebab takda duit?"

I can feel the warm tears in my eyes as babah nodded and just smile. Yes, we had a difficult time before. I still remember wearing other people's clothes for Hari raya because babah couldn't afford to buy us. and I remembered eating 'nasi goreng' for the whole month, because we dont have any money.I remembered working when I was in form 4, to pay the SPM fees. and I remembered seeing my dad holding back tears when I gave him some of my salary. I am not whining. I am grateful.

I am grateful that we've been through bad times together, I am grateful that being in such situation makes me more human. I know how those unfortunate people feels. as I have felt the same thing before. I am grateful that ALLAH swt have shower us with a lot of good fortune. I am really thankful to have this life. I really do.

May Allah swt bless us all during Ramadhan, and throughout the year, with His forgiveness, mercy, and brings us all closer to Him and to each other. Insha-Allah


salam Ramadhan Al-Kareem

My dream job and why

Assalamualaikum, salam ramadhan yang pertama.

when I was a little girl, I always thought career as a singer is fun. you get to sing, and in tv shows, singer makes lots of money and I wanted that so bad. but as I grew up, that ambitions change. from doctor to lawyer to policewomen to teacher and finally a writer.

I like to be a reporter/journalist/writer because, i get to see people. I can't imagine working in a closed office from 9-6 everyday. crazy man.

gahh, i hate to talk about job because I am jobless right now.

10 things im telling 16 year old me

hello 16 y.o Aina,

this year is going to be super hard for you. but as the oldest daughter, you should be strong. I know you will.

1- there would be friends that would back-stabbed you but nevermind them. they're not gonna make it to your future
2- Atie is going to be your friend until ur 24 and hopefully forever. and her dad would apparently like you too. later on. so just chill ok
3. when you got into college, you will find one of you real friend ever. be nice to her
4. you will lose weight. and you wont be overweight anymore. not that you care huh?
5. your baby girls are going to grow up just fine. don't worry about them
6. You'll have your bachelor degree when you 24. hey be proud okay
7. the world doesn't end on 2012. I am in 2013 now
8. things may change between you and your brother but remember, he is still your brother
9. be nice to you grandparents when they're still around. Opah will go to heaven pretty soon. so does Atok. love them endlessly though
10. you don't like cats do you? you will later on. trust me. you'll go crazy over them


sincerely,

24 y.o unemployed Aina.