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Assalamualaikum

Often I felt that I am a victim of everybody's cruelty. Often I've been let down alone to face my pain. Often I felt that I don't really have anyone to help me when I am going through hard times. Often, we as human feels that way.

but little that I knew, I had let someone down too
little that I understand, that I have somehow causing pain to another human being too
little that I am aware of, I have pushed away people when they're going through hard times.
little that us human, knows that we have hurt others too.

so you see, its a cycle.

Its Life.

throwback 3 #kasut

Assalamualaikum,

right now I am sitting in front of the TV and watching one drama entitled 'Kasut'


Story is about two children (a girl and a boy) who lived with their grandmother and they are very very poor. the kakak wanted new shoes for school. so she saved up every pennies to buy them. tapi tahujelah drama Melayu kan. mana sah kalau tak ada orang jahat. so many things came up she even fell into the river and lost all her money.  sounds so stupid but yeah so many tears in this movie it is so sickening.gahhhhhhhhhh

But I know how she felt. I've been in her shoes. come to think about it. I think I am so stupidly selfish. oh okay. tiba-tiba rasa tak boleh nak sambung sebab sesak nafas memikirkan diri ini yang tak berhenti menyusahkan. not so much for a throwback right? I don't care. bye!

#throwback 2- betul ke kebetulan?

I have been friend with cikkay (bukan nama sebenar) since our diploma times. one thing that I really like about us is we don't mind wearing the same piece of cloth or specs or bags or whatever it is. I don't mind. really.

and most of the times, people thought we have somehow promised to wear the same baju kurung/ colour to classes when we don't. banyak kali jugak lah kan TERpakai baju sama warna/baju yang memang beli sama-sama sampai orang kata

"eh, samalah baju aina dengan cikkay. janji ehhh"

when what actually happen was

*me gets down to her room and found her wearing the same colour as I do*

"woi apehall engkoo pakai warna ni apahallll"

"woi tiruu-tiruuuu"

"ihiks, samelah baju itew"

"waaaaaaaaaa, magicnyaaa pakai baju sama-samaa" *kelip2 mata*

"sehati dan seeejiwaaaaa" *nyanyi*

"engko sibuk kan, aku pakai baju ni engko pakai yang ni!"

(the reaction differs according to our moods at that particular time)

 lepastu gelak sama-sama/ insult satu sama lain sampai letih. leulz

I guess we have some sort of telepathy connection or something.

 

 O Allah,

let us be friends.forever. Amin

p/s: 

I know that sometimes I just forget how fortunate I am to be blessed by family and friends that stay. I know that I seldom tells them how important they are in my life. You see, I don't have many friends. It is still countable. so yeah beautiful people. thank you so much for sparing some space for me inside your life. yours truly, me.