Tuesday, July 24, 2012
didn't really sleep last night because of izrin and Kak An, well, because we're busy twitting about random stuff which is completely ridiculous. sleep at almost two am then woke up at 3.45 to prepare sahur for the family. Yes, its the 4th day of Ramadhan and I took the responsibility to cook for sahur. my hand is failing me somehow. the skin suddenly became so sensitive to all kinds of soap. it is now itching and dry and its painful whenever i have to wash dishes. but anyhow I still have to do it. now I know how cik kay feels like. I am extremely sleepy right now that my eyes hurts. its the 4th day of Ramadhan and I feel blessed. Im grateful to still be alive. and I know Im posting crap but Im just stealing some time so that I won't fall asleep. I need to send mama to work first before flying to dreamland. and the time is now.
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Sunday, July 1, 2012
Life is bitching with me right now. I hate my job, I hate my workplace, I even hate myself for being this kind of shit. Why can't I just keep calm and do the work? because it involves money. other people's money.. I really wanted to quit, but Kak Zima beg me. I hate being a soft-hearted person. I hate being weak! I should have just slammed the door and walked out, but I didn't. I hope that paria would be dead by tonight so that I wouldn't have to see his face anymore. I hate how my periods is playing around with my emotions. I hate being alone because I would start to think about this matter and I don't even like that. I hate that I could not perform solah right now,. I hope I could kill you motherfcuker Paria! Im hating my fragile-self