Tuesday, July 24, 2012


didn't really sleep last night because of izrin and Kak An, well, because we're busy twitting about random stuff which is completely ridiculous. sleep at almost two am then woke up at 3.45 to prepare sahur for the family. Yes, its the 4th day of Ramadhan and I took the responsibility to cook for sahur. my hand is failing me somehow. the skin suddenly became so sensitive to all kinds of soap. it is now itching and dry and its painful whenever i have to wash dishes. but anyhow I still have to do it.  now I know how cik kay feels like. I am extremely sleepy right now that my eyes hurts. its the 4th day of Ramadhan and I feel blessed. Im grateful to still be alive. and I know Im posting crap but Im just stealing some time so that I won't fall asleep. I need to send mama to work first before flying to dreamland. and the time is now.

Thursday, July 19, 2012


I think I can express my thoughts and feelings better in a place where I know nobody's reading it. I speak freely, I don't have to think about what perception readers might have and so on. definitely not here. diary perhaps?

Saturday, July 7, 2012


for this semester break. I have 3 things as my wishlist. Praises to Allah SWT, two of them have been achieved. which left me with one. hopefully, I would be able to achieve this too. syukur Alhamdulillah

Sunday, July 1, 2012

F that

Life is bitching with me right now. I hate my job, I hate my workplace, I even hate myself for being this kind of shit. Why can't I just keep calm and do the work? because it involves money. other people's money.. I really wanted to quit, but Kak Zima beg me. I hate being a soft-hearted person. I hate being weak! I should have just slammed the door and walked out, but I didn't. I hope that paria would be dead by tonight so that I wouldn't have to see his face anymore. I hate how my periods is playing around with my emotions. I hate being alone because I would start to think about this matter and I don't even like that. I hate that I could not perform solah right now,. I hope I could kill you motherfcuker Paria!   Im hating my fragile-self