Sunday, May 10, 2015

Masa

'Hey you got some time?' Elly menekan laju kekunci keypad telefon bimbitnya. 

'Tettt...tettt..' Kedengaran beberapa kali bunyi daripada peranti pintar itu menandakan ada mesej yang diterima 

'Sorry beb, i tgh busy sikit ni, nanti free i text u'  tasha, kawan 'baik' daripada universiti. 

'Weyyy awat, aku dalam wayang ni sorry' mia, kawan sepermainan. 

'Aku nak kena present report esok ni weh, nantilah bila free aku call kau' zaim, kawan yang dianggap sebagai rakan lelaki paling rapat. 

Dan beberapa lagi jenis mesej yang lebih kurang sama bunyinya. Elly terbaring merenung siling. Telefon di tangan dilepaskan buar jatuh ke lantai


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'Aku tak sangka dia ada masalah besar, sebab dia tak pernah cakap apa-apa pun'-tasha. 

'Teringat dulu dia tolong aku masa aku down kow2 hampir kena buang universiti'- mia


'Apa silap sampai dia sanggup cabut nyawa sendiri. Kalau ada masalah kan masih boleh cerita dengan aku' - zaim. 

Dan begitulah becok mulut bercerita tentang betapa mereka 'mampu' tolong kalau si Elly membuka mulut. 





Cehh. Dunia. 









Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Coffee

Assalamualaikum.

I have a very serious relationship with coffee. And i dont think its healthy anymore. When i am alone, all that i can think inside my brain is a hot cup of coffee. I need those booze. And i am alone all the time. Which mean i need coffee 24/7. Coffee works like drugs on me, it makes me forget what im dealing with for a while. It gives me some space to think.coffee made me feel loved somehow.

Whenever i looked at my phone and bump into something sad, i need my coffee again just to make my day feel better which obviously is not good. 


Being addicted is not good. Unless you have tons of money which i obviously dont. 

I dont really feel anything. Not sure if its a good sign. 

Big hole inside my heart. Lolz