isnin

Assalamualaikum.



Nanti, suatu masa nanti mesti akan datang. apa yang kau tengah struggle cuba sesungguhnya untuk cari. sementara itu, senyumlah.

ingat yang indah sahaja. selamat hari isnin. :)

tralala

Assalamualaikum.




semoga cepat siap kerja dan boleh pergi kelantan dengan tenang.


p/s baju bridesmaid dah siap. *senyum*

yang

Assalamualaikum. 

bestfriend is getting married. can you hear that? the sound of my heart breaking into pieces *cries a river, no. an ocean*  okay chill. not that I dont want her to get married, but I mean, come onnnn who else are going to entertain me and took me shopping and buys me lunch and give me expensive birthday presents (That I forced her to buy but hey its my birthday dont judge!) 

I know for fact that things will never be the same again. after this she will have to put her husband first before me (grrrrrrrrrrr) and whatnot. But I also know how much have she gone through since they've been together. being the stupid girl who refuse to cry, I know how much pain she bears alone. cant believe I have this stupid girl with me for over than 7 years now. *sigh*. handling her over to you now Mamu. 

so Yang, hi hello. this is awkwarddddd but you know, I will always be the romantic one. yeah, you are SO LUCKY! trust me. 

Dear Yang,

After going through storms and tsunamis and few little happy things (me), finally! its your turn to be happy! Alhamdullillah, I hope all of the hardships that you've been through makes you stronger now. You know you will always have me here, watching over you.  I pray for you everyday, and I pray that we will still exist in each other's life no matter what happen. I hope you will still be the annoying, super duper slow, and blurr as you always were. I want nothing but to see you be happy with the person you love. 

May you both lived happily ever after.InshaAllah

end of sweet letter. now, how do you make fresh flower hand bouquet again? you know, my stupid bestfriend is getting married and she decided she wanted a fresh flower hand bouquet. can anyone tell me why do I stay friend with a nonsense like her? Must've lost my mind somewhere. *double sigh*

Happy.

Assalamualaikum.

Theres a lot of happy things happen to people that are close to me. rainbows and butterflies. flowers blooming, sun shines brightly. I am happy for them. I seriously do.


one question I often ask myself.

When can I be happy for myself. sincerely. without having to pretend.



still, happy for you guys. Alhamdulillah.

Pain.

'For all the things that you're alive to feel, just let the pain remind your hearts can heal' 

*sigh*

Ansari and zahra

Assalamualaikum. I have wrote about her before. my kakak from virtual world. yeps. might sound pelik to you but yes. we have never really lepak in real life. we always chatted through social media ; facebook, twideer (oh those times) and now Instagram. 

And I have promised to come and meet her baby since past ten thousand years. tapi ada je benda nye yang buat tak jadi. so yesterday, she texted me and in the evening. wallahhh, she's in front of my office.

you dont have any idea how unreal I feel. Its like, mehh, I dont even remember her voice. (kecik je rupanya suara omeyy angat). anddd Zahra is like my bff because we just click. you would have been jealous, seriously. 

I am so happy because at laaaaast we finally met. harapnya lepas ni selalu lah kita lepak sesama lagi. I need to teach Zahra how to annoyed you. cool aunty is cool.

okay, izinkan saya mereput di tepi meja kerana dateline. sempat je kau update blog. boss ingat kita gigih ketuk story. kahkahkah *lap peluh*

this post deserves a picture. my picture. separuh sebab nampak kurus sikit. hiks 

senang

Assalamualaikum.

Untuk memudahkan urusan harian dan urusan hati aku. aku rasa yang paling mudah dan berkesan ialah. go with the flow. haritu aku ada masalah dengan seseorang ini yang buat aku rasa 'mehhh, I dont even want to talk to you ever again'. tapi sekarang macam dah okay. hati aku tak sakit bila pandang muka dia. so, I guess thats a good start. One thing that I learned over time is, holding grudges ain't going to take you nowhere. kau hidup kau bernafas sambil sedut segala perasaan sakit hati kau. sampai bila soalnya?

Kan? Aku rasa mudah lagi kalau kau jadi orang yang meminta maaf. No matter how stupid it might sound to you, I did that. and I felt the burden fell off my shoulder.

And yes, aku sedang bergelut dengan masalah hati jugak sekarang ni, kesian aku. dah tua-tua selayaknya dah ada anak tiga baru nak merasa perasaan bangang ni. kahkah. itu pun satu hal, aku go with the flow jela. doa. doa dan terus doa. kalau belum masa, kau buatlah macam mana pun. tak kemana. betul tak? DIA sebaik-baik perancang. Hey, have faith Aina. InshaAllah :)