15th Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum.

Its been a while since I write something here. I just heard the sound of thunder outside my house and it makes me feel calm. anyhow, last Saturday, my sister and I accompany Babah to his workplace and on our way home we went to the Pasar Malam because Babah wanted to find something to munch. and I saw people selling tudung, clothes, shoes and stuff. which took me back to the time when I was a little kid. Suddenly I felt choked. I was holding back tears.

"Bah, ingat tak masa dulu bah? beli baju 10 ringgit dekat pasar malam. sebab takda duit?"

I can feel the warm tears in my eyes as babah nodded and just smile. Yes, we had a difficult time before. I still remember wearing other people's clothes for Hari raya because babah couldn't afford to buy us. and I remembered eating 'nasi goreng' for the whole month, because we dont have any money.I remembered working when I was in form 4, to pay the SPM fees. and I remembered seeing my dad holding back tears when I gave him some of my salary. I am not whining. I am grateful.

I am grateful that we've been through bad times together, I am grateful that being in such situation makes me more human. I know how those unfortunate people feels. as I have felt the same thing before. I am grateful that ALLAH swt have shower us with a lot of good fortune. I am really thankful to have this life. I really do.

May Allah swt bless us all during Ramadhan, and throughout the year, with His forgiveness, mercy, and brings us all closer to Him and to each other. Insha-Allah


salam Ramadhan Al-Kareem

My dream job and why

Assalamualaikum, salam ramadhan yang pertama.

when I was a little girl, I always thought career as a singer is fun. you get to sing, and in tv shows, singer makes lots of money and I wanted that so bad. but as I grew up, that ambitions change. from doctor to lawyer to policewomen to teacher and finally a writer.

I like to be a reporter/journalist/writer because, i get to see people. I can't imagine working in a closed office from 9-6 everyday. crazy man.

gahh, i hate to talk about job because I am jobless right now.

10 things im telling 16 year old me

hello 16 y.o Aina,

this year is going to be super hard for you. but as the oldest daughter, you should be strong. I know you will.

1- there would be friends that would back-stabbed you but nevermind them. they're not gonna make it to your future
2- Atie is going to be your friend until ur 24 and hopefully forever. and her dad would apparently like you too. later on. so just chill ok
3. when you got into college, you will find one of you real friend ever. be nice to her
4. you will lose weight. and you wont be overweight anymore. not that you care huh?
5. your baby girls are going to grow up just fine. don't worry about them
6. You'll have your bachelor degree when you 24. hey be proud okay
7. the world doesn't end on 2012. I am in 2013 now
8. things may change between you and your brother but remember, he is still your brother
9. be nice to you grandparents when they're still around. Opah will go to heaven pretty soon. so does Atok. love them endlessly though
10. you don't like cats do you? you will later on. trust me. you'll go crazy over them


sincerely,

24 y.o unemployed Aina.

my relationship with my spouse

hello.


well, I don't have one yet. so emm, okay. need to study now





lololololls that was quick.

3 legitimate fears and how they came about

Fears.


1. Lightnings

Well. I don't really remember when I started to fear the lightnings. but lets just put it this way. If I were left alone and there were lightnings, my blood will turn into blue colour. lololols. like what happen 2 days ago, I was home alone (with my cat, but cat doesn't really count does it?). And there goes lightning everywhere. that was crazy man. really! -___-'


2. Getting Attached to someone/something.

Yes. because sadly in the end, when I have put 300% of my trust to them. they leave. or changed. or both. and it sucks because I have to act like I don't care when I actually fcuking do. So yeah.



3. Goodbyes.

I was never good with goodbyes. and I will never be. I'd rather just go away than saying those words.




wow. that was quick

20 random facts about Aina Mickey

I have done this before but I think few things have changed. leulz. So lets see how it goes

1. Middle-child. people says that middle child is a freak. naahh, I think I'm cool liddat. leulz
2. I care and worried A LOT about whatever you people told me. even if when u ended the sentence(s) with                              
    "tak ada apalah, nothing, just kidding, main-main je" and so on. Emo. K
3. I eat a lot. now that I can cook, I eat even more. leulz.
4. I drink a lot too. I mean plain water because I am not really into sweet drinks. (but somehow there are people who thinks I din drink enough water)
5. I don't really love pink but I tend to buy things in that colour.
6. I have a bike. a white Honda Ex5 which I ride everyday inside the campus. Ya you got that right, it is not exactly mine. It belongs to my dad.
7. I play the guitar. only to the song that I can sing and like. that is why I start learning how to play the guitar in the 1st place.
8. There are times when I don't feel like talking but still have to because everyone knows me as the chatterbox. it really annoys me.
9. If I hate you, I won't talk to you. Its that simple.
10. I like mickey mouse. but I don't buy so much of mickey's stuff anymore. no vivid reason for that but I still love mickey mouse.
11. I have three cats. Abu, Ojen and Kabu (because recently one of my cat, Egy died)
12. I remember so many things that sometimes I have to pretend I don't so that it won't freak people out.
13. Turning 24 this year and still if I went out with my baby girl, people would think they're much older than me. lololololsss
14. I cannot sleep if my bed is untidy.
15. I rarely got time to read. but once I did, it would be hard to make me stop.
16. recently, I fell in love with coffee (thanks to you, final year project!)
17. light sleeper, I can woke up to the sound of the bell on my bracelet
18. I love cakes! cheesecake, chocolate cake, pecan butterscotch, name it!
19. I hated my school life
20. I just took two pills for my flu and fever and now I am dead sleepy


phewww. 20 is hard.

Like a boss

yaa. Like I don't have anything else to do. gahhhh, btw I found this in my beruang kutub's blog and I want to do it as well. So I will! yeay!