pandang belakang.

Assalamualaikum.

Since I havent started working yet, I think I would love to write about things that happened before in my life. happy/sad/silly/ or whatever that cross my mind. yeah. so, it will be a series of #throwback (kite manada account instagram kan, so dalam blog pun jadilah.)  yahh tadi macam banyak je nak tulis sekarang dah lupa. hahahayhfdsjhuysjiafghjklartywui betul. baiklah. just wait for my #throwback entry(ies) salam maghrib.

nose bleed

Assalamualaikum

Nose is still bleeding today. and I must say that it is the worst blood I see coming from my nose so far. My head felt little bit dizzy. maybe because from the heat inside my body.

hati tak berapa tenang kebelakangan ni. mintak dipermudahkan jalan oleh-Nya.

puyu green tea with rainbow jelly

Assalamualaikum

urgh. this is so annoying. Have you people ever come across a situation where when you are not on blogger, you have thousands and trillions of idea on what to tells ( Especially when I am pooping) and suddenly when you finally puts your hands on your keyboard and everything pufffffffff. gone. yes (My 1st world problem)

*inhales deep big breath* anyhow, sent Nadia back to UPM just now and I'm quite happy to have her as my guest in my home. and now Dekya is babling about her friends that are coming over tomorrow which I only responded with a "hmm hmmmm hmm" Hoi, can't u see Im busy typing here?

Went for a lunch with Cikkay just now and happy tummy is happy (orang belanja of course happy youuu)
but I tapau what I ate because Idk my tummy is so poyo that it won't take much food anymore which I think is a good thing because I am trying so hard to maintain and if possible cut even more kilo(s) that I have now.

Spent some quality time (well, 2 hours of lunch break on Friday obviously couldn't cover of too much stories that we both kept to gossips later) and If Tekwa was around it would be even much more fun. but he had something up with her gf so okay maybe next time.

And now I am waiting for the horror movie to buffer and thats the only reason I am on blogger now.

My blog is so dull makes me want to put some pictures but as usual I am so lazy. lantaklah bukan ada orang baca sangat. lulz. bye

Eid yows!

Assalamualaikum

Selamat Hari Raya yang ke-6. well, its not really late right. Alhamdullilah still be given a chance to celebrate this raya with my loved ones. Went back no Negeri Sembilan for Raya celebration. did not get so much 'duit raya' and I felt so guilty still receiving duit raya from aunties and cousins.( jobless person 1st world problem)
I only manage to celebrate the 1st and 2nd raya. fell sick on the third raya together with my youngest sister. jadi dikala orang lain pergi beraya, kami berdua tampal 'cool fever' di dahi dan membuta hingga ke petang hari. and now both of us sounded just like Ella. husky sexy voice aummm. k perasan lebih je tu. and bythewayowwww, my baju raya is black colour same as mama bear (Please note that this is somehow an attempt to be your daughter in-law if the baby is a boy. wkwkwkw) and yeah, Nadia Badrulhisham is staying over at my house for the next few days because she have interviews in Key Hell. can't wait to see her. I kinda miss Cik Kay and Cina. bila nak hang out ni?

15th Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum.

Its been a while since I write something here. I just heard the sound of thunder outside my house and it makes me feel calm. anyhow, last Saturday, my sister and I accompany Babah to his workplace and on our way home we went to the Pasar Malam because Babah wanted to find something to munch. and I saw people selling tudung, clothes, shoes and stuff. which took me back to the time when I was a little kid. Suddenly I felt choked. I was holding back tears.

"Bah, ingat tak masa dulu bah? beli baju 10 ringgit dekat pasar malam. sebab takda duit?"

I can feel the warm tears in my eyes as babah nodded and just smile. Yes, we had a difficult time before. I still remember wearing other people's clothes for Hari raya because babah couldn't afford to buy us. and I remembered eating 'nasi goreng' for the whole month, because we dont have any money.I remembered working when I was in form 4, to pay the SPM fees. and I remembered seeing my dad holding back tears when I gave him some of my salary. I am not whining. I am grateful.

I am grateful that we've been through bad times together, I am grateful that being in such situation makes me more human. I know how those unfortunate people feels. as I have felt the same thing before. I am grateful that ALLAH swt have shower us with a lot of good fortune. I am really thankful to have this life. I really do.

May Allah swt bless us all during Ramadhan, and throughout the year, with His forgiveness, mercy, and brings us all closer to Him and to each other. Insha-Allah


salam Ramadhan Al-Kareem

My dream job and why

Assalamualaikum, salam ramadhan yang pertama.

when I was a little girl, I always thought career as a singer is fun. you get to sing, and in tv shows, singer makes lots of money and I wanted that so bad. but as I grew up, that ambitions change. from doctor to lawyer to policewomen to teacher and finally a writer.

I like to be a reporter/journalist/writer because, i get to see people. I can't imagine working in a closed office from 9-6 everyday. crazy man.

gahh, i hate to talk about job because I am jobless right now.

10 things im telling 16 year old me

hello 16 y.o Aina,

this year is going to be super hard for you. but as the oldest daughter, you should be strong. I know you will.

1- there would be friends that would back-stabbed you but nevermind them. they're not gonna make it to your future
2- Atie is going to be your friend until ur 24 and hopefully forever. and her dad would apparently like you too. later on. so just chill ok
3. when you got into college, you will find one of you real friend ever. be nice to her
4. you will lose weight. and you wont be overweight anymore. not that you care huh?
5. your baby girls are going to grow up just fine. don't worry about them
6. You'll have your bachelor degree when you 24. hey be proud okay
7. the world doesn't end on 2012. I am in 2013 now
8. things may change between you and your brother but remember, he is still your brother
9. be nice to you grandparents when they're still around. Opah will go to heaven pretty soon. so does Atok. love them endlessly though
10. you don't like cats do you? you will later on. trust me. you'll go crazy over them


sincerely,

24 y.o unemployed Aina.