3 legitimate fears and how they came about

Fears.


1. Lightnings

Well. I don't really remember when I started to fear the lightnings. but lets just put it this way. If I were left alone and there were lightnings, my blood will turn into blue colour. lololols. like what happen 2 days ago, I was home alone (with my cat, but cat doesn't really count does it?). And there goes lightning everywhere. that was crazy man. really! -___-'


2. Getting Attached to someone/something.

Yes. because sadly in the end, when I have put 300% of my trust to them. they leave. or changed. or both. and it sucks because I have to act like I don't care when I actually fcuking do. So yeah.



3. Goodbyes.

I was never good with goodbyes. and I will never be. I'd rather just go away than saying those words.




wow. that was quick

20 random facts about Aina Mickey

I have done this before but I think few things have changed. leulz. So lets see how it goes

1. Middle-child. people says that middle child is a freak. naahh, I think I'm cool liddat. leulz
2. I care and worried A LOT about whatever you people told me. even if when u ended the sentence(s) with                              
    "tak ada apalah, nothing, just kidding, main-main je" and so on. Emo. K
3. I eat a lot. now that I can cook, I eat even more. leulz.
4. I drink a lot too. I mean plain water because I am not really into sweet drinks. (but somehow there are people who thinks I din drink enough water)
5. I don't really love pink but I tend to buy things in that colour.
6. I have a bike. a white Honda Ex5 which I ride everyday inside the campus. Ya you got that right, it is not exactly mine. It belongs to my dad.
7. I play the guitar. only to the song that I can sing and like. that is why I start learning how to play the guitar in the 1st place.
8. There are times when I don't feel like talking but still have to because everyone knows me as the chatterbox. it really annoys me.
9. If I hate you, I won't talk to you. Its that simple.
10. I like mickey mouse. but I don't buy so much of mickey's stuff anymore. no vivid reason for that but I still love mickey mouse.
11. I have three cats. Abu, Ojen and Kabu (because recently one of my cat, Egy died)
12. I remember so many things that sometimes I have to pretend I don't so that it won't freak people out.
13. Turning 24 this year and still if I went out with my baby girl, people would think they're much older than me. lololololsss
14. I cannot sleep if my bed is untidy.
15. I rarely got time to read. but once I did, it would be hard to make me stop.
16. recently, I fell in love with coffee (thanks to you, final year project!)
17. light sleeper, I can woke up to the sound of the bell on my bracelet
18. I love cakes! cheesecake, chocolate cake, pecan butterscotch, name it!
19. I hated my school life
20. I just took two pills for my flu and fever and now I am dead sleepy


phewww. 20 is hard.

Like a boss

yaa. Like I don't have anything else to do. gahhhh, btw I found this in my beruang kutub's blog and I want to do it as well. So I will! yeay!

pasti

pasti akan rindu

MAMA

Susah sebenarnya bila nak cerita pasal Mama. macam-macam hal yang lalu-lalang dalam kepala. nak cerita yang mana satu pun tak tahu. Yalah, nama lagi tengah berbicara tentang insan yang istimewa.

Ada yang kata jangan sambut hari Ibu haram apabenda semua. Hari ibu setiap hari bukan Hari ini saja. Tapi, biarlah. Alhamdulillah lepas semalam call mama wish Happy mother's day pada dia. lidah ni masih boleh mengucap. masih boleh sembahyang. tak lupa apa pun. Tak apalah. satu ucapan yang boleh buat Mama gembira. kira dosa jugak ke macam mana?

Mama,

1) Diet dekat rumah tak pernah berjaya. semua salah Mama. tengah2 malam waktu yang memang patutnya tak payah makan. Dia akan menjelma dekat pintu bilik "Na, mama ada masak megi/nasi goren/mee/ mihun ni, taknak rasa kee?" yang pesen anak pulak rasa tak reti sesudu. Sedap gila cerita dia kan. so yeah. (in denial diri sendiri gemuk nak salahkan orang) 

2) Risau bila tengok aku susut. Mungkin orang lain lihat aku saiz xxxxxl, mama nampak S je kuttt -.-'' So setiap kali nampak susut, dia gelabahs sikit. "Naa kurus sikit mama tengok kau tak makan keee?" omboi Ma, bukan anorexia anak mama ni, overweight ada -.-

3) Call setiap hari just to say hello. tapi kadang-kadang aku tak habis cerita lagi dia dah letak telefon -.-

4) kalau nak panggil anak-anak dia. mesti pusing nama keempat2 baru jumpa yang dia cari. contoh nak panggil alang.  " Am, Ena, Ya, Alang.." see yang last baru dapat nama yang dia betui2 nak panggil. 

5) Pandai masak. emm wait. SANGAT pandai masak okay! tak caya tanya Cuki, Amir, Dika, tah sesiapa lagi yang pernah makan rendang ayam mama. FTW okay!

6) cerah. pehal aku tak cerah ikut dia.pehall *terus rasa diri anak angkat*

duh. kehabisan idea bila tengok bilik serupa sarang beruang ni. anyhowww, Happy mothers day to all mothers, mothers-to-be out there. It takes a mum to knows a mum and I am yet to be one but I do love my mom! hah amek merapik panjang berjela.

Puan Darliar bt Ali, my beloved mommah. I love you. 

Egy the baby

Petang tu hujan lebat. aku dengar ada bunyi suara-suara halus yang kesejukkan. dekat luar rumah. bila tengok, dia ada kat situ. menyorok bawah pasu bunga. sejuk mungkin. aku dan Ya ambil, bawak masuk. balut dengan baju, bagi makan. bagi minum.

tapi bila Babah balik, dia tentang. dia tak bagi simpan. dia suruh pergi buang. which I refused to follow. Mana boleh buang muka comel macam ni. dia nak makan apa nanti. dia nak tidur dekat mana? 

sebab anak-anak Pak Hasan yang memang hobinya keras kepala. Babah last-last terima juga dia sebagai ahli keluarga. 

kami panggil dia Egy. Egy the baby. masa kecil dia bulat. dan ekor kembang. lepastu jenis tak sedar diri. selamba pergi terkam nak belasah Abu yang konfem-konfem tiga kali ganda saiz dia. 

Egy manja. suka sondol-sondol nak tidur atas riba. kadang-kadang sampai rimas. tengok dia. kejap. Nak kesat air mata. 

masa Ojen mula-mula sampai rumah ni. Egy takut tengok Ojen. Yalah, Ojen kat bulu lebat. mungkin dia ingat Ojen spesis orang utan. Entahlah. Masa tu, Egy merajuk taknak dekat sesiapa. 

Tapi bila dah geng, Egy jadi mentor Ojen. Apa yang Egy buat, Ojen nak buat. Egy panjat tv, Ojen pun ikut panjat tv. bezanya, pergerakan Egy smooth. si Ojen pulak buat berterabur semua benda.

Egy baik. kucing baik. Egy kucing aku. selalu aku kata macam tu. 

Egy pergi sana cari Icam okay. kawan berdua. harap-harap satu hari nanti Tuhan temukan kita. Angah sayang Egy sampai bila-bila.

May 2012-May 2013

Rest In Peace buddy. 

nescafe latte

hello. Its been a while. right? I don't know where to start. Thank You Allah swt, for the peace that I found. for the friends that stays. Alhamdulillah. I am a little bit afraid. because things went too well, I'm scared that I would die if He takes back everything in a blink of eye. Less than a month to finish everything up, sit for final exam and then, I am gonna say goodbye to everything here in UPM. 3 years passes so fast.

Betty says that she is not feeling well there in Korea. well, I hope she would recover quickly. MAKAN UBAT! and yeah, tomorrow I'm going to have my Spanish Mid-Term test. Please let me and my friends do well in this test Ya Rabb.