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Terima Kasih ya Allah Tuhan Agung sekalian alam

atas kesusahan masa lalu. kesedihan. keperitan, yang buat kami bangkit daripada takuk lama.

terima kasih atas kurniaan rezeki. yang tak pernah terfikir akal, bakal dimiliki

terimakasih kerana buat kami sedar, dan jelas

tentang warna-warna palsu manusia sekeliling,

terima kasih Ya Rabb. atas kesempatan ini.

Syukur Ya Allah.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

testing

hello 

eat

I made this for my baby sisters. They wanted to eat it. they enjoyed it just now, and now. my brains do the thinking. what would it feels like when the judgement day comes? we would not even knows or remember each other anymore. I wouldn't want to forget just yet. 

I think its time for me to go to bed. salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak 

4th

didn't really sleep last night because of izrin and Kak An, well, because we're busy twitting about random stuff which is completely ridiculous. sleep at almost two am then woke up at 3.45 to prepare sahur for the family. Yes, its the 4th day of Ramadhan and I took the responsibility to cook for sahur. my hand is failing me somehow. the skin suddenly became so sensitive to all kinds of soap. it is now itching and dry and its painful whenever i have to wash dishes. but anyhow I still have to do it.  now I know how cik kay feels like. I am extremely sleepy right now that my eyes hurts. its the 4th day of Ramadhan and I feel blessed. Im grateful to still be alive. and I know Im posting crap but Im just stealing some time so that I won't fall asleep. I need to send mama to work first before flying to dreamland. and the time is now.

pink

I think I can express my thoughts and feelings better in a place where I know nobody's reading it. I speak freely, I don't have to think about what perception readers might have and so on. definitely not here. diary perhaps?

:)

for this semester break. I have 3 things as my wishlist. Praises to Allah SWT, two of them have been achieved. which left me with one. hopefully, I would be able to achieve this too. syukur Alhamdulillah

F that

Life is bitching with me right now. I hate my job, I hate my workplace, I even hate myself for being this kind of shit. Why can't I just keep calm and do the work? because it involves money. other people's money.. I really wanted to quit, but Kak Zima beg me. I hate being a soft-hearted person. I hate being weak! I should have just slammed the door and walked out, but I didn't. I hope that paria would be dead by tonight so that I wouldn't have to see his face anymore. I hate how my periods is playing around with my emotions. I hate being alone because I would start to think about this matter and I don't even like that. I hate that I could not perform solah right now,. I hope I could kill you motherfcuker Paria!   Im hating my fragile-self